Lex, The Stalker

I like how you turned the tables on it and make me in your shoes. That's an all time clever stalking job.

The plot is folly. The underpinnings are what binds people to their plots. Free the underpinnings through exposure, and you free the person from their plots, and they can practice controlled folly instead of stalk others.

You have many threads on this forum, that are presentations of Lex's view. The Battlestar Galactica and the Prodigal Son and one about the Garden of Eden (don't remember its name), and many more. You create these posts that are very academic approaches to warriorism, and then as people flock and read these threads, you keep them going with more and more information, you create.

The people must stay in your area of perception, you are at the helm delivering the knowledge to them, to help them "understand" and be set free by the truth, which is your truth. You don't want to lose your audience because then your threads would not have anyone to come and admire them and you. Stringing people along, unresolved, having them flock to you instead of speaking from their own voice free of your intellectual jargon.

You like authority, you like being the one to lead people. In the recap forum, you went off on so many tangents with biblical stuff and the long thread about recapitulation where you used all those dictionary definitions and other crap. And as I read these things I wondered why you were so off on your tangents that had nothing to do with what we were doing there.

Lujan came in and spoke to you about it and so I gave you space at that time to express where it was you were coming from. I thought you might just be confused about what we were doing because you were relatively new to that forum at the time.

And even with all your threads here on the forum, I knew they had an "authoritarian" nature about them, such as "I am your teacher, everyone listen to ME". But I didn't know to what degree you coveted this. I felt at times it was simply your writing style and the way you expressed yourself.

And now that I see here in this thread, how you are taking me on directly, I see how much it means for you to have this kind of influential power over other people and how hard you will fight to keep it. I see because who you really are is emerging here, and now I can recap these other times on the forum and it all communicates to me what you have been doing since you came here. And how you don't want what you had here to change. You want other people to be spiritually underdeveloped than you and you can lead them to their freedom through your truths.

What you see me as being here is really a reflection of yourself. You see me as gathering all these people under my spell, when in fact it is you. You think you have an advantage here, because you can say I confront, and when I confront I have an agenda. And now, look at Lex, he doesn't confront, (except he can confront a confronter) so he must not have an agenda. "He's just a well-intentioned participant of this forum who contributes thoughtful posts that make people think and free themselves through his elucidations."

But guess what? Lex doesn't confront because he's happy to have people gobble up his "teachings" and as long as they are "with him" their salvation is at hand, so what's to confront? he thinks. As long as people listen to him, and like what he says, they must be on the path of truth. And shame on Tiffany for coming in and asserting her agenda by confronting these nice people just because she wants control. Lets go back to the days when Lex could get a following of admirers to read his threads.

nagual wrote:

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You said that and this about Tiffany, which means nothing as far as I am concerned. I asked her specifically to hone her skills of clarity upon other people's acts so as to bring clarity and thus far this has occurred.

So now you are attacking her. The next person will be me.

It is true Lex. Lujan asked me. He said to me at the time he asked me that I have a proclivity for uncovering the truth. I feel this is from the Lujan family and also my paternal side, many gifts from these families.

Lujan has always monitored this forum. So, to say what you say, you are saying Lujan cannot see what has been occurring on his own forum. You have never met Lujan, or actually you did but do not remember it, but I assure you he is more powerful than his forum presence conveys.

It is a lonely path you will embark on if you chose not to trust his integrity. Look at his life, the gifts he's been given, and you chose your own seeing that contradicts what he's telling you? And I'm not saying doubt yourself, I'm saying Lujan's voice has contradicted your perceptions, again and again in these posts he's made. So one has to ask in such a circumstance, is Lujan right or am I right?

I know it is a value to trust one's self, but here's a secret--one's self cannot always be trusted. Knowing when this is the case is the key to everything, it is what transforms. Jaguar visiting you should have been an indication of your power in relation to Lujan's. Obviously Lujan has more power. It is not a boast to say this. It is simply something that can be made absolutely clear to a person, especially if one sees him face to face. In your case, it didn't even have to be face to face.

Now in your stubborn declaration, you will say you are right and no one else can see it. And where is that path you are on going to lead you Lex?

Lex, this is what you posted the day after Jagur visited you. It portrays a different Lex than we are seeing here, and so for the sake of showing you your turn about, I post here. This does not compromise book content.

lex icon wrote:
Ok everyone, first thank you! Last night wow! Had it not been for what I am about to say about something that happened last night, I doubt I would have been back to this forum.

During my exchange with Lujan last night this is what happened. I felt this pressure building in my chest it was very intense! Then I began to hear a sound of what sounded like the deep rolling moaning of a cat. I kept hearing it I was surprised the dog wasn't curious about it. I even got out of my chair and opened the front door, fully expecting to see a cat there. There was not. The pressure continued, the noises and the pressure seemed to conspire to completely disorient me. I have never felt anything quite like it. I felt at that point I needed to withdraw. It was at that point Lujan you asked me to get on Skype with you. In that disoriented state I thought it would have been impossibe to interact with you and I felt very vunerable to say the least. I was glad I did not have to actually speak with you. I think I would have just fell apart. So I said "no thank you". At that moment I certainly did not want to expose myself. I was thinking just get away and never come back lol. I then went to bed and the pressure continued but now I could focus on it more, not having to speak with anyone. The pressure subsided a little and moved into the area about 3 inches above my navel. Then it seemed to go back and forth. I had a restless night.

Today I was examining my feelings. The fear and distrust of everyone in these interactions was unreasonable on my part. I have seen it happen to others so many times in the forum yet somehow I thought I was immune to it, "above it all" so to speak. Then to see how unwiling I was to go anywhere near this in myself, I thought wow what a pussy! So here I am. You have my attention to say the least. Tiffany I will probably flare up again. I will probably want to run away and hide again, If you see that happening just call me a pussy and get your snake handling gloves on. You know I can be a self righteous, conceited prick at times and very aloof. I wouldn't want to deal with that shit and yet you Lujan and Glance did. Lucky I don't realy know but thanks too.

Can we do the pressure thing again? What is pressure????

Lujan, I am a cracked gourd. I need to get this perimeter sealed.

Lex

glance left wrote:

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Lex

Reading this, I felt like leaping for joy, Lex. I really did. Let's follow through....let Tiffany and Lujan do what eternity sculpted them to do. I think, now, you're going to enjoy it...as I have.

Let the head lopping...BEGIN!!!

nagual wrote:

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lucky wrote:

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lex icon wrote:

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Lucky I don't realy know but thanks too.

You don't know me because you have been withdrawn as long as I've been here, lol.



I read almost everything here, including the list of members active in the last 24 hours. I even take a count to see the waxing and waning of visitations.
So I know who's coming and going, whether or not they are posting, and the content of their attention - at least to the degree available to me within the context of the forum.
If the log of links each member clicks on was available to me I would read that too.

yillecka wrote:

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Hi Lex, you disappeared about the time I arrived, about a year ago. I used to read you posts and then it became very quiet. I also wondered what happened to you and felt that something had, but not knowing you at all, I kept quiet. Which is something I often do, even when I feel something going on. Perhaps I shall need to step up a little more too. But it sounds like you woke up some big cat that might jump on your back if you stay in the dark!

Tiffany wrote:

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Yes, Lex, that was very heart felt, very sincere. I've been there too, and I have to be humbled everyday still. Even though I'm extremely honest, there is always somethign more for me to see and it is not always flattering. So I do understand, and I appreciate, respect your honestly in just saying what you felt even though it is not flattering. To be flattered, that is, to allow flattering thoughts to dominate us means we are possessed by them, becasue they will say "if others find this out about you, that you are not 'all that' then you'll have nothing." And its true that in the social realm, to be this honest can be like lamb to the slaughter. I know, I used to be honest with people that weren't resolved and they didn't appreciate it and used it to their advantage to manipulate me.