I was in a big empty room and my bed seemed to be in the middle of it. For some reason I felt as if I could rotate my bed just with the intention to do so. It
was very eerie in this big dark room and I cold barely see; my body felt a strange fear. Out of one of the corners came a big shadowy cat the size of a lion; I
just had the sense that is was running on all fours. I immediately got out of my bed and started to wrestle with it. I Knew I had no chance but I became
entangled with "it" anyway. I screamed out Da, and as I became fearful and entangled with it my feeling became numb. Then I "felt into"
this other being, a deep feeling. I became warm and then woke up. With my dreaming eye still functioning I saw a big tarantula type spider the color of black
and orange the size of a softball crawl around the wall in my room. (I have seen this spider numerous times after other entanglements.) I went up stairs to go
get some water and I could feel myself going into this numbness of feeling, followed by strange thoughts, then I started deep breathing and I gradually came
to.
There was a thread last night of programs I was watching on television that dealt with the macho man (Tom Cruise and Val Kilmer in Top gun, then an interview with Mickey Rourke in his new movie The Wrestler. Then I watched a new show on Fox called Frindge. In these shows I watched the women and the men and they seem to both have a need to exert there superiority over one another and flaunt there different egotistic skills. I just thought it was all so foolish to become emerged in such childish games. Then last night when I started to wrestle with this shadow, I did not fear for my life and I wasn't worried, I just felt the need to take it down even though I knew I would become injured. That is what frightens me the most; knowing that I wasn't frightened.
There was a thread last night of programs I was watching on television that dealt with the macho man (Tom Cruise and Val Kilmer in Top gun, then an interview with Mickey Rourke in his new movie The Wrestler. Then I watched a new show on Fox called Frindge. In these shows I watched the women and the men and they seem to both have a need to exert there superiority over one another and flaunt there different egotistic skills. I just thought it was all so foolish to become emerged in such childish games. Then last night when I started to wrestle with this shadow, I did not fear for my life and I wasn't worried, I just felt the need to take it down even though I knew I would become injured. That is what frightens me the most; knowing that I wasn't frightened.
