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I had a relative call me yesterday, because she wanted to fuck with me. I told her I would not be a part of it. So, she sent me an email because she still wanted to fuck with me. Again, I told her no.

Maybe next she'll trying being nice so as to get reentry into my space. And if I let her in, she'll proceed to fuck with me. Except, I'm not going to let her in. And its not because I don't like her, I do like her. Its because I won't let myself be fucked with. I am responsible.

Hey Bit,

We all have to learn this. Because we were all fucked with and we also learned to do it back. So, we became immersed within it.

The beautiful part, which you will find out and have probably have already experienced, is that drawing your own perimeter of power and letting others know "you cannot cross here" brings extreme joy to our inner child. And this joy that resonates within as we assume responsibility will buffer the 'pressure' others will try to apply as a result of our stance.

Good luck with it. Lujan's advice to me, when in a struggle for my power with another or others, was to use more assertiveness, rather than less, and then I can correct later if need be. Of course, by assertiveness I don't mean anger, just asserting your truth to another when they are fucking with you. If you do become angry, you can always consider withdrawing and observing. Anger should never be used as a means of communication. If we do it, we can simply remove ourselves and recap what occurred.

Otherwise, assertiveness can certainly make another angry even if your perspective is not of anger. So in this case, its important to not become involved in the other's emotions. But you can still do this and remain assertive.

Blue totem wrote:

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Well what I'm getting is that this is a Castaneda based web site. Lujan wrote a book called
''Stalking Parallel Perception''. Stalking is a word that was passed down from Don Juan to Carlos.
So I guess I got my answer.

Blue Totem,

You got the answer you wanted to hear because you told it to yourself.

I started reading Castaneda when I was 14. I followed him for about 10 years strictly. I tried to apply everything in his books. In my twenties I moved away from his books, and by thirty I had gotten rid of all his books I had owned. I kept only 1 "Active Side of Infinity" because the chapter Mud Shadows intrigued me and I thought I'd keep the book around in case I wanted to reread the chapter. Still, I rarely picked the book up--maybe twice in 5 years. Otherwise, I had put following Castaneda to rest.

I found Lujan's website at age 34 and what I liked about it is that it did not remind me at all of Castaneda's work. I wouldn't have stayed at this website if it was just parroting Castaneda because I was finished with Castaneda as far as I was concerned.

If you take the time to read elsewhere in the forum--try the Castaneda forum, you'll find posts by me that challenge Castaneda's work.

Yet, you think I'm an adamant follower of Castaneda which is quite funny considering that here at this forum, I have often been the voice of disagreement about Castaneda. I still do not trust Castaneda. However, I have learned to see beyond the man. And this really applies to all people, beyond all people is the abstract working through them. So, in essence, everything is a teacher if we learn from whomever presents themselves, no matter who that is. It can be anyone, can't it?

What you have done is reveal your shallow perception and impulsive desire to communicate that which you know nothing about. So, I have learned something from you. Because we are all essentially the same. What is reflected to us from another is personal, yet the impersonal reveals lessons or insights to those who will listen and see and the lessons pertain to the perspective of the observer--if they are empty enough to receive, so the lessons are vast and as diverse as people are. And the lessons are always occurring.

There is a contradiction in what I have just said:

"Because we are all essentially the same."
"so the lessons are vast and as diverse as people are."

A warrior lives within contradictions.

Knowledge IS war.
In order to know something, you must release what you previously knew. In order to release what you previously knew, you must surrender to uncertainty. In order to surrender to uncertainty, you must realize you don't know anything. This takes courage beyond belief.